I leave my heart open but it stays right here locked in its cage.
I always thought that given the opportunity to leave my parents house, I’d take it without hesitation. But sitting here today, with tickets booked for the next morning I’m wondering if I’m brave enough.
I always found the idea of starting afresh, in a new city where no one knows my name, to be so attractive. To build myself ground-up and to find myself, without any bag or baggage from my past to weigh me down, was so seductive. Today, I feel my stance changing. Going away is not as easy as that. Starting afresh isn’t as attractive as that. Leaving everything that’s familiar behind, isn’t as seductive either.
I wonder if I have the courage to live the life that I’ve dreamed of for so long; if I have the courage to leave the nest and fly… or fall.